I was given the greatest compliment today and it made me kinda sad. The director of our practice is a bit eccentric and high maintenance (to put it lightly) and demands perfection at ALL times from everyone even if it requires 14 hour days. She does it, so why shouldn't her staff?? Well anyway, we've had our bumps in the road and are now on a good path and today she actually said "I can't believe how young you are and how well balanced you have everything." She went on a little more but this really struck me.
It shocked everyone in the office, including me because for 1-she actually gave someone who was not an MD a compliment, and 2-she said it in front of other people. If you knew her you would totally understand (think a younger Meryl Streep in Devil Wears Prada). I was humbled and tried to get passed this conversation, I really don't like to be center of attention like that, but then I went to my office feeling like a liar.
There are days I am REALLY jacked all the way up: Chunks whines about something and I CAN'T DEAL! I mean really, did you really have to scream because you dropped a Hot Wheel??? Some nights I don't have the energy to act out the scenes of Caps for Sale so it may or may not be hidden under my pillow because I know he's gonna ask for it...
I am NOT a morning person so waking up is a daily activity in itself and if everyone is expected to be at their desks working at their assigned time, how can the LEAD walk in 10 minutes late (without snacks for the group).
Organic Chemistry is the devil's work and for some reason I cannot wrap my mind around it and if you know me, when school is off for me I'm OFF.
Somedays I get up and can't even begin to care about what I really look like so most days you can catch me in some scrubs and a bun ::shrug:: Gotta do better before NYC Kindergarten tours start.
I don't have it together, some days I just wanna stay in the bed and miss a day to hide. Motherhood is a constant job-you worry when you're gone, you fuss and dote when you're together, and you're planning their future all along the way. My job is stressful even though I'm learning a lot I know this isn't the last stop for me and that makes me sad too (but that's another post) but it's important and has to be done. I'm NOT Supermom, I'm not Super-Boss, and some days I just can't deal but if someone thinks I'm at least one of these my fake it til I make act must be pretty darn good! #RantOver